JULZBOY

nakakatamad na talaga mag friendster. everyone seems to have moved on to multiply. but i will continue to maintain this…

even if i end up being the last friendster-blogger standing (orin my case, lying down).

then again, this blog is a mere reproduction of my blog in multiply hahaha
(June 16, 3:38am)
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BEAR with this blog. This might be the deepest blog entry I have ever made.
Sa sobrang lalim, hindi ko na rin maintindihan. Parang love. di ko gets. hehehe basura

Instructions:
I was Tagged by my kabarkada (studio 23) Kitch kill-to-win Ramos. I’m supposed to write 7 random habits/facts about myself.
This was one of those forwarded msgs which said that if I didn’t want
my worst fears to come to life, I should follow this. Since I don’t want to have 7 children comprised of 7 girls, I decided to indulge her. Besides, I have nothing else to do (well, i suppose i could go back to studying… but that would be too logical for me).

Don’t
worry, I’m not asking anyone to make their own after reading this. I’m
taking a valiant stand. I’m taking one for the team. The chainmail ends with me.  (feeling hero)

The random facts:

1) I’ve only had ONE girlfriend for ONE DAY for the past 7 years

2) I have a very strong "loner" side which compels me to just sit down and write about things and people. (in school, when my head is bowed down while walking, yun na yun)

3) I get crushes on really smart women (particularly those who speak good english and those with good diction… hirap kasi ako e) . Provided, of course, na presentable man lang. tipong ka level ko. (tingin sa sky. hehe)

4) I ONCE got 100 on a Math exam and ONCE for Religion. Sabi ba naman ng teacher ko, "Darkhorse ka a? Di ko inaasahan na ikaw mag-t-top". Buwisit. Mukha niya Darkhourse. YUN ang darkest hour ko. hehe

5)
I was supposed to do a Sprite commercial when I was in highschool. (tapos
a small role dub sa isang small budget movie). Kadiri hehe… At least now,
I make my own mini-movies (SECRET!)

6)
I have a mild case of Dyslexia. I see letter P’s as B’s and Q’s as D’s
sometimes. (even while tybing on my combuter) know what I mean? This is true though.

7) I’m flat-footed and I once lost 30 pounds from 2nd yr to 3rd yr Highschool (mag-i-interaction na raw kami e haha)

Please pass this to 100 people or else, WALANG MANGYAYARI. Di nga, promise, WALA TALAGA. shucks… kakatakot.

PS: Ginok din ako ng ibang family members ko dahil sa huling blog ko…
Sabi ba naman sakin…

"yes naman, darkest hour"… ayun, nagdilim nga paningin ko.

basura hehe

In Your Darkest Hour

-by Julius Esquivias 

It comes at
different times for different people. It comes in different forms. Its myriad effects
causes undue pressure and unnecessarily raises one’s stress levels.  It forces upon you a feeling of helplessness
while choking off your air, practically daring you to give up. Doubt forms
and self-confidence dissolves as frustration envelops your person. You shudder
either in disgust or in trepidation. Your stomach gets squeamish and your knees
start to buckle. You ask the questions, not knowing if they are the right ones.
And you filter answers to hear only those that you want to. Your sense and
sensibilities disappear. Suddenly, you’re so far away from your comfort zone.

Suddenly, you
are all alone.

The weakest
point of your life can come as a complete surprise and leave you helplessly
torn apart. When it does, you feel that everything that matters is at an end. At
such a juncture, your mind conjures Failure as your ultimate destination. Your
rational mind shuts down, and your heart aches for a more glorious past.

You begin to question
yourself even as your whole belief system teeters on the edge. You come to one
of your life’s crossroads and you are forced to choose a path you would have to
navigate. You’re tempted to choose the one with least resistance, knowing you’d
have to choose another more rewarding one. In that instance, you finally see
the failings of both neutrality and weakness of personality. At that period of
time, you understand the need to take a stand and make a life-defining choice.

After taking
that fateful step, life gets better. You wake up from your stupor and realize
you’re okay. You become more conscious of your surroundings, and become more
appreciative of what you have. You realize that empty boxes make pretty good containers.
You recognize that fallen fruits are seeds for the future. You envision your
heroes’ chastisements and echoes of disappointments as prospective storylines
for your later success.

Then you take
steps to make it into reality, and dream of writing about it for posterity.

Your quest to
determine who you are will begin with finding yourself in the shadows of inadequacy.
You may choose to sulk and be a sad soul in your darkest hour. But you may also
choose to be an inspirational fighter. With some luck and perseverance, you can
further yourself to achieve great progress. From the blindness, you can rise and
become that shining Star.

You don’t have
to completely fall.

When your reason
for standing gives way from under you, God is only telling you that it’s about
time that you fly.